MY DAD WAS MY ANCHOR...NOW WHAT???

JOSE CHARLES WALSH 6/10/1938-9/25/2009 LOVE YOU DADDY!


BEING THE LAST CHILD OF A MINISTER IS REALLY TOUGH. I LET MY DAD DOWN TREMENDOUSLY SO MANY TIMES. HE HAD HIS OWN EXPECTATIONS OF ME AND MY AGENDA WAS TOTALLY DIFFERENT. HE TAUGHT ME AN AMPLE AMOUNT OF HIS WISDOM AND I AM EVER SO GRATEFUL. HIS LEGACY WILL FOREVER LIVE ON IN ME, MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS AND ALL THE PEOPLE HE HAS COME IN CONTACT WITH.

MY BIGGEST REGRET: I HAVEN TOLD ANYONE THIS.....
MY DAD ALWAYS TOLD ME THE STORY OF WHY I WAS BORN. HE PRAYED FOR A DAUGHTER THAT HE COULD TEACH AND WOULD TAKE CARE OF HIM IN HIS OLD AGE WHEN HE IS SICK. (I TEARING UP AS I WRITE) WHEN I MOVED TO ATLANTA I TOLD MY DAD LIKE A DAY BEFORE I LEFT THAT I WAS LEAVING. TO WHAT I CAN RECALL I BELIEVE HE STARTED GETTING SICK ON NUMEROUS OCCASIONS MORE THAN USUAL. THEN THE CANCER KICKED IN AND I LOST IT, MY MIND WAS GOING BACK AND FORTH TO GO HOME OR STAY AND I CHOSE TO STAY. THAT WAS MY BIGGEST REGRET EVER BECAUSE THAT STORY JUST STUCK AND STICKS WITH ME STILL TO THIS DAY. I HAVE TO TELL YOU THE LIFE I HAD IN BOSTON WOULD HAVE KILLED ME IF I WOULD HAVE WENT BACK. SO I DID CHOOSE TO BE SELFISH BUT MY PARENTS UNDERSTOOD THAT AND AGREED THAT I SHOULDN'T COME BACK EVEN THOUGH THEY WANT ME THERE AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO BE THERE TOO.


BEING THE BLACK SHEEP OF THE FAMILY WITH MY TATTOOS AND PIERCINGS, DIFFERENT VIEWS ON RELIGION AND TASTE IN "OFF THE WALL" MUSIC. MY DAD AND I WOULD ALWAYS DISCUSS MY VIEWS WITH ME AND NO MATTER WHAT HE WAS GLAD I HAD MY OWN MIND EVEN IF HE DIDN'T AGREE WITH ME. I'VE MADE A SHIT LOAD OF BAD DECISIONS IN MY LIFE FROM DRUGS TO SEX TO VIOLENCE AND OTHER SHIT AND I THANK GOD EVERYDAY THAT I AM STILL ALIVE AND WELL. I BELIEVE IT WAS THE PRAYERS OF MY WONDERFUL LOVING MOTHER WHO COMPLAINS AND WORRIES ABOUT EVERYTHING (LOL) AND MY DAD THE ANCHOR OF OUR FAMILY, THAT KEPT ME OUT OF DANGERS ARMS MADE ME ESCAPE DEATH SO MANY TIMES.

MY DAD WAS STRICT AND I'M GLAD HE WAS BECAUSE LORD KNOWS WHO I WOULD HAVE BECOME IF HE WASN'T. I LOVE HIM AND I MISS HIM, I STILL CRY EVERYDAY FOR HIM LIKE A LITTLE BITCH BUT ITS OK.

R.I.P POPPA BEAR A.K.A MINISTER WALSH!

MY DAD WAS MY ANCHOR...NOW WHAT IS THIS GIRL TO DO?



~CIAO.BLESS~