CRAVING!!!!

I SHOULD HAVE NEVER...

WHAT MORE CAN I DO WITHOUT LOOKING LIKE A FOOL????

I THOUGHT I COULD....

NEVER AGAIN WILL I PLAY THE FOOL...

THE TIME HAS COME TO GET REAL OR GET LOST....AS REAL AS I AM I FEEL AS THOUGH I NEED TO BE LOST IN THE CLOUDS OR JUST SOMEWHERE FAR WHERE PEOPLE DONT KNOW ME...AND PEOPLE WILL MISS ME...

OR NOT...

WHAT MORE MUST I DO TO PROVE MYSELF WORTHY...

I SAY IM IN DENIAL AT TIMES BUT I THINK IM NOT AND EVERYONE ELSE TRULY IS...IM HEARING THE SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER AND IM JUST TRYING TO DEAL, BUT EVERYONE WANTS TO STATE THE OBVIOUS...

I KNOW DAMMIT BUT I CANT DO SHIT ABOUT IT, ILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT PATIENTLY UNTIL THE BIG PICTURE IGNITES ITSELF AND THEN ILL STILL BE AROUND TO PIECE THE PIECES BACK TOGETHER...

ILL FIX THE BROKEN AND GET NOTHING FOR IT...I VOLUNTEER MY SERVICES FOR NO RECOGNITION WHATSOEVER, JUST TO PLEASE OTHERS AND IM TIRED...MENTALLY IM JUST SUPER DRAINED WITH THIS SITUATION...

TRYING TO FIND A WAY AND I WAS TEMPTED TO DO SOMETHING TODAY BUT I DIDNT HAVE THE COURAGE TO...THE OUTCOME COULD BE BAD AND IM NOT TO BE TRUSTED...

IM GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWALS AND I DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING RETARDED...I THINK I NEED TO GO TO BED EARLY TONIGHT SO I DONT GET IN TROUBLE...DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT!!!

THE CRAVINGS IS RIDICULOUS...I FEEL LIKE A VAMPIRE FIENDING FOR BLOOD...AND IM NOT TALKING ABOUT DRUGS LET ME CLEAR THE AIR NOW ON THAT...

WHAT TO DO TO CURVE THESE CRAVINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN DENIED FOR TOO LONG???

CALL IT LUST IF YOU WANT...THEN IM TOTALLY LIVING IN SIN...HEHEHE *SSSSHHHHH*

~CIAO.BLESS~